needed a change from the seriousness

got bored of seeing such a huge post when i look at the front page of my blog... and that too such serious stuff.. makes me feel all responislbe and all..lets leave that till i start working..and going the H1 way as i call it..:)
was going thru my resume..and got reminded of all my "achievements".... and as a result gloated at all my medals(almost all :D).. no no.. this is not a self- boasting post again.. stop sighing..and read on..by the way cant but take a dig at this.. i have a "best character" award from middle school ....hahahahha... beat that now :P... cant believe i have traveled this far ..from my innocent days...but then without digressing too much..get the thread and feel the continuity...
went thru probably the most common saying that teachers used to con us with in school... "participation is everything..winning does not matter".. and boy they used to get some pretty innocent kids conned!!! mebbe it made those kids better individuals and more social individuals.. i dont know!!! but it sure made me more critical of the good..the bad ...and the downright pathetic... :D
and then there was the overachieving.. irrepressible (no sumanth..i didnt copy it frm ur orkut profile..i know that word...:D) vince lombardi who said "Winning is not everything, it's the only thing"...such contrasts.. and made me think..thats why he probably achieved so much as he did...and my teacher was left leading her life in the midst of mediocrity, at best..am not being sarcastic or caustic....but you tend to achieve as much as you want to......
so remember...to play fair, well barely fair is good enough and thats about as fair as ill ever play..and go for the win... go for the jugular...kill..swipe..finish ur rivals... remember..."alls fair in love and war" and that arjun and krishna..killed and won with more than a hint of "taking advantage.and stretching the rules to the limits"....and they are heroes for generations of grannies... and grandpas.... and we chant the name of lord krishna...with austerity..and of arjuna with great reverence...when probably..they used deception to the utmost to win!!! well.. virtue had to win.... but they still didnt play completely fair...
where did these thoughts come from??? i played badminton with a 60+ year old dude.. dude cos i think hes pretty cool and fit and to be the way he is at actually is an achievement...i was wondering do i play easy and make the game more interesting... he didnt like it when i kept playing daft shots across the court.. he seemed to beg..come on.. i know u can play harder.. please do...i want to be treated as an equal dont show mercy.... i obliged him.. and we were both happy at the end of the game.. the points that he won...were purely won..so he was satisfied.. and for me..i LOVE WINNING :D...
well..if he.. with such an obvious disadvantage wants me to win hard and rough.. then bloody well..everyone else i face in my life...be prepared to face me at my most cold-hearted best :)...i make no friends... all enemies from now till the end of my days... have enough friends i think :D
muahahahahahahaha... (echoing like ravan's laughter in the Ramayan... :D...and the villain from chandrakanta serial.....krur singh i think...:D..cant belive its gotten a rerun... damn..want to watch chandrakanta)

PS: getting nostalgic abt all the serials... muahahahahahahahahahahaha...

PS II: certain situational humor in this post has been deleted owing to threats to the authors health.... :D..where is the option for free press and reporting i say!!!! the title had to be changed too owing to certain amount of discomfort faced by certain avid readers... :P

a calm day!!

now that the thesis is done and over with... finally had one day to myself... dont remember the last time when i woke up at 11 am..rolled and rolled in bed... till i suffered from severe back spasmites.. owing to unbelievable stretching... felt like hobbes today :)... and then watched a footer game...lying in bed... and a good game at that too...arsenal (my fave club by the way :D) beat the living daylights out of juve... 2-0..but it could have been 6-0 and still would been a reasonable scoreline ( and for once i am not exaggerating)... ate a bit....read a novel (thats one thing i havent done in 6 freaking months... so felt terrific..the life of pi its called..and a pretty interesting book it is too)... played a bit...and rolled around some more...
tomorrow reality hits again...got to clear a course still....and needs some effort too..:D..but that is part of the boring routine!!!
all this aside... i have had an interesting three months in 2006...no this is not some quarterly report... i just wanted to talk abt my first resolution that has lasted this long...and is going to last a long time after this too...on the 1st of jan 2006..i quit coke and coke products..and pepsi and pepsi products too... i decided to do it as my silent protest against the exploitation that these companies are carrying out on poor rural indian dwellers and am sure of many other countries!! (one interesting site) see here
(and FYI... i was an avid coke drinker...why?? no reason at all... just guzzled it like teh americans guzzle beer..had 1litre of coke a day...atleast.. and that was the norm for pretty much the god part of 2 years here in the us..and 1/5 of a huge bag of lays a day....that was me.. so what i write below..has not been easy for me to do ...not at all..which makes it all the more gratifying that i am actually fighting for the cause!!..not that i should make a fuss out of it..but i believe that i have led a selfish..greedy life..and this is one of the few slightly silverish spots..that i can be proud of..and can actually share with all those who read this blog!!)
well anyway..i thought..ok..no soft drinks..big shit... i can live without those... saves my enamel and saves me a few extra pounds me thought... then realized... hmm..no bottled water either..most found ard here are either owned by pepsi or by coke and no freaking LAYs (not that lay u pervs :D :D..or was it just me )... realized i had to make more trips to the indian grocery store to lay my hands on murukkus..and maamis banana chips.. they are yummier anyday..
and then i realised...hmmm.. no more powerades and gatorades....i always thght gatorade was owned by ESPN..dont ask me why..i just thght so... but no..its a PEPSI co product... and no tropicana or minute maid of course.... set my sights on Dole juices..the name sounded so corny that i thought it had to be a local brand.. NOO..i was sooo wrong.. that was part of Pepsi Co. too.. have since deteriorated to Motts apple juice :D and red bull... yuck it is..but still something to keep me going....
i have since realized that most of the chains of restaurants i visited.. a la pizza hut... and the great Taco "h"ell :D (picked the calling bell as hell from a good friend... who does not read this blog am sure.. but ill credit the person with it..in case they do drop in by mistake) all had links with one or the other cola companies!!! so cut them all out of the system!!! taco hell really recently..but yes ...its out of my system... :)
saw a zillion other brands under these two companies... no bacardi for me!! no evian water (not that i drink evian..but thought itd be cool to add evian here.. DIG THIS: EVIAN WATER IS MORE EXPENSIVE THAN PETROL IN INDIA... How crappy can it get??? what mother nature took millions of years to produce..and what we use...after some umpteen highly expensive and polluting procedures.. is cheaper than some bottled water... CRAP!!! capitalist SOBs... out to make profits... and we fools allow them to exorbitant costs).. even the cuppax Dr. Pepper is owned by Coca-Cola... i drank oddwala juices for a while..pretty yummy... but u know the routine by now.. who?? ok coca cola !!!
and, oh yeah!! you got to read the catch line for coca cola..to understand the irony!!! (make sure u dont miss the intro... for the sarcastic irony!!#!@#@#@) see here
i was then reminded of something someone told me... coke is all pervading.. its the most popular brand in the world... and coke is the most common word in all languages after "love" .. yuck what a contrast in the two words!! ( not that love is pure anymore..ppl seem to randomly use it.. " i love her ass"... " i love his purrrfume" crap... lust is more the word to use there :D,, infact love can be replaced by many simpler synonymns..in most "fuck"ing cases!!! :D :D )..
anyway before i digress.. i have stopped drinking most softdrinks...infact all liquids that dont have starbucks or redbull stamped on them .. everything else i am sure is a coke/pepsi partnered product.. and oh yes....how can i forget!!! coke pays my school.. loads of money.. so that it can monopolize the student market...!!!!!" i have stopped eating on campus too for fear that the chains have some link or the other with coke..after all ..the beverages they serve are only coke..... damn it...its my battle..and its getting tougher by the day.... BUT... but.. but...
it is possible to survive... its possible after all!!!..even by the rules that i have set for myself.. and inspite of the all pervasiveness of coke and pepsi!!!! eat home cooked food.. fill up bottle of water..on the way to lab.. drink that..or drink water from the dirty fountain there..!!!... drop into starbucks... (interesting case history there)....eat in some local business restaurants... drink some redbull... to keep in touch with the commercial world.. ( am pretty sure that red bull is screwing the eco system in some other country...so will gradually avoid that too.. and for that matter starbucks too... but for now..i need some commercial shit in my system..why?? cos sudden avoidance is difficult.... ask any jilted lover... :D..it takes time..time is a good healer.. eventually ill get them out too..and turn to water... and fresh fruit.. and juice that i make myself... on a small scale... ).skip a few meals if nothing else is possible!! but ill live!!!
and I LIKE TO KEEP IT THIS WAY !!! but..am i making a difference??? i hope i am..and as they say...its droplets of water that fill a huge jug....and did i say silent protest.. i dont want it to be siltent anymore...i want more people to join in this war against greedy corporations that make huge profits... no matter how high the price... "a few million people going waterless is ok... is too small a price" they say.. "oh yeah baby...kill them all... who cares" they say..
WELL I DO!!!!!! and i hope YOU DO TOO!!!!!

cant sleep!!!

IT IS MY DEFENSE....another D-DAY

where is my torniquet??
where are my friends??
where are they??
i need them and their wishes...
to get me through my hyperexcited..hyperventilated state!!!!!
pray for me... and if possible...take my body for a day...i dont think ill be able to present coherently tomorrow.....
will try to sleep.... hope i get enveloped in a lumberjack sleep... :)
and hope that i make it through tomorrow...SAFE and SOUND!!!

APT :)

Thesis defense time... :) cracks me up.. hehehe

and i hope i dont get jacked.for using it without permission..thanks a lot phdcomics :)

What gives?

Man is a multi-faced monster.... one thing happening deep inside...and yet...he shows up exactly as he is supposed in front of others...
overworked...in front of prof :D (underpaid too)
stressed with lab-mates
relaxed when playing sport.....like alls under control
tuned to the music and the world..at home with the roomies
busy..with friends...to buy yourself some peace time.. (jus kidding on this one)
goodie goodie boy who is happy with everything around...when calling home.. :D
"you need me" ....with potential hiring firms :D
sleepy.....when there are people ud rather not hand ard with... :D

and YET..when u are by yourself.... thats when you face reality and the sadness and the likes ..and you heal... they say time is a good healer.... i agree..but you still have to go through the pain routine!!! and thats when u got to be by urself.....

Currently listening in repeat mode to......

"Child, don't you worry
It's enough you're growing up in such a hurry
Brings you down the news they sell you
To put in your mind that all mankind is a failure

But nobody knows what's gonna happen tomorrow
We try not to show how frightened we are
If you let me I'll protect you however I can

You've got to believe
it'll be alright in the end

Fighting, because we're so close
There are times we punish those who we need the most
No, we can't wait for a saviour
Only got ourselves to blame for this behaviour

And nobody knows what's gonna happen tomorrow
We try not to show how frightened we are
Would seem lonely, if you were the only star in the night

You've got to believe
it'll be alright in the end

You've got to believe
it'll be alright again "

Soulful song..probably affecting my mood too.... blame it on duran duran :)

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."

- Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

And the comments from the previous post reiterates the latter :)

This is the last in the series of comment based posts.

The winner of the BIG FIGHT is everyone...was good fun while it lasted...but lets cut it down now :)... i should probly set a counter that shows which area each of the commenters are from.... will make my life easier... think of it as a fore-warning :)...or mebbe i already know.. :) nice to hear frm all of you...hahaah

The Big Fight

Introducing....
In the red corner..wighing in at 150 pounds.. the unchallenged champion commenter.. unnnnnnnnnknouuuuuuuuwn. (Applause)
and in the blue corner..weighing in at 140-240 pounds... the hitherto unheard of challenger... annnnnonnnnnnymmmmmmmmmous... (Applause)

The winner to be decided by submitting to my demands / offering a hand of friendship to each other/quitting the bullshitting, mudslinging, bickering/ shaking hands and behaving like gentlemen /man & woman

All in good jest :-)... so dont get too pissed off :) and dont gang up and start screwing me up....

PS: for the uninitiated:

ROUND 1:
Unknown said...

Three comments deleted....:O....
Anons are either lazy or dumb to miss the name part......

ROUND 2
Anonymous said...

Unknown!!! said...

Three comments deleted....:O....
Anons are either lazy or dumb to miss the name part......

- That coming from someone with the name 'unknown'!. Is ironic the word im looking for?

ROUND 3

Unknown said...

Hey Anon...see atleast i have the name "unknown" which is unique and i have one address(i mean a blog of my own)...so i think that's enuf...i dont want to argue much with those who are scared to reveal themselves...what u thgt u proved urself smart with that...grow up machi..:)

a friend of a friend's love poem...:)

She’s a feast for my eyes,

She’s where all my interest lies;

The expression on my face belies

The feelings I try to hide in a guise;

Her dazzling smile, her impish face,

Almighty Lord, I rest my case:

She awes me, and I’m in a daze,

I feel I’m drawn into a maze!

Till the kitten purrs and till the hound bays,

I’m all hers till the end of days!

Every day I sit and laze,

I’m enveloped in a haze;

As night goes by, at the stars I gaze,

My friends tell me, “It’s just a phase!”

But I know better, and am all praise,

For Cupid’s struck, and given chase!

She’s my goal,

With her, I’m whole,

I don’t mind missing Super Bowl,

While I serenade to her from the depths of my soul!

But, I’ve had an afterthought:

Does she like me or does she like me not?

Life, right now, consists of zeros and ones,

And my poem, right now, is full of puns;

A penny for her thoughts, a nickel, a dime,

I’ll do anything to make my poem rhyme!

Since I’ve paid attention to every little detail,

I feel this poem of mine shan’t fail;

But if it does, I’ll have a ruse,

To pray, worship, to sit and muse!

God’s given me the gift of verse,

To tell her: You’re His Gift to the universe!

The gist of this poem is, my dearest,

I shan’t ask you out until it’s at your behest!

Don’t consider this to be a jest,

‘Coz for me this is an acid test,

So please tell me the answer to my quest,

That’s all is my sincere request,

I hope with your reply, my heart soars,

If my poem flatters you, well, you’re the source!

{If in my poem you find an error,

Well, I’m no English professor!}

Also...a famous quote. flicked frm a frd
I will not play at tug o' war. / I'd rather play at hug o' war, / Where
everyone hugs instead of tugs. -Shel Silverstein, writer (1930-1999)

about dogs et al.

like every other dog..ill have my day too :)
till then..sleep i shall...and hibernate... :) and yes..i do know that most dogs dont hibernate..but some do...they are not dogs at all..but hell its my post and i can twist language to my advantage..

Passion Play Begins here.. ( cheap shot on Ro)

I always support the underdog...so does every tom and kee... how many countless movies have been made of the underdog coming trumps..one of them that touched me when i was a kid is "jo jita wohi sikandar"...a story about a kid from a poor neighborhood... winning a long distance cycle race being pitted against opponents who had the money to afford the very best and also the clout to use unfair means along the way.. i knew the underdog would win..but i still sat enthralled as the movie came to a close... :) and was willing the protagonist on..all the way to the finish line..and even held my breath till he actually pipped the outrageous villain to the tape :)..
and what i witnessed yday had to be a "David and Goliath" sort of moment..something that one hopes to see once in his lifetime, "to see the repressed fight back and drive away the oppressors" ... but not many do... and boy was i ecstatic at the end of it or what?? i love happy endings i think....:)
Seeing SA chase down 434 in a one-day international was incredibly amazing... for starters, i never thought scoring 400 was possible in a one-day game..esply not when the teams involved are as evenly matched as Aus and SA... but to see it happen twice in a game...amazing.. :) ..a spectacular team effort...good luck for the batsmen..not so much of the luck for the fielding team...made it the "greatest one-day game ever". its been officially labelled..that shows how everyone thinks this is a freak of nature ..something that wont happen again... :)
We have been lucky to witness some really spectacular matches in the recent past...
who in the world can forget livpool coming back from 0-3 down at half-time to win the European Cup in 2005 against the mighty AC Milan or India following on in kolkata against the hugely talented australians before laxman and dravid scripted that famous eden garden win, the glowing feather in saurav ganguly's cap as captain or for that matter... greece winning Euro 2004, with supposedly a team made of almost amateurs pitted against the superstars of the top football clubs of the world....
One thing that stands common in all these victories..apart from the fact that i saw them all and freak luck... is PASSION.. all the victories were achieved by a combination of reasonable talent, well harnessed with steely determination and backed by adrenaline..and pumping fists......(well not in the literal sense..but you could see it in the eyes..)
too many people forget to give credit to what can be achieved by pure spirit and an undying attitude.... (including the famous inter-wing footer game that we won and retired from football in iit ...:D ) To this spirit.. i toast.. and i imbibe into myself...its nectar :)
To Meghamsh: this does not mean that ur catch line must be " I HAVE TO WIN" no no no.. it just has to be " I WILL NEVER GIVE IN..and PLAY FAIRLY YET PLAY HARD" :)

An afterthought: this is something i saw somewhere..and it really made a lot of sense to me ..

"We could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors...but they all have to learn to live in the same box."

20+3 years down the line....

The scene is set for the silver jubilee reunion of the Batch of 2004.... the specatculars as they are called now... a batch of highly intellectual individuals...involved in diverse occupations such as politics... sports.... banking... software....the stock market..and private entrepreneurship.. from the spectaculars... 6 merit special attention...they were the "black boys" in school...looked down upon.. made fun of for their trivial behavior to anything even remotely academic...they called themselves the "mandakhorses"...standing for their free spirit.....their bunching and munching together and their fearlessness and their wild attitude to life...
they havent met in many many years...not all of them at one place anyway...and this is something that they have looked forward for many many years...

A..dashing debonair....a good athlete...gaunt..with high cheekbones.. he was the casanova.. people now call him the merge broker... he helps/mishelps? merge massive corporations and takes huge paychecks home.. and all for the simple reason that his FM fundamentals..and flow of money concepts are very very strong (thanks to AH) . age..and chasing skirts for a long time have taken a toll on him... he is now a virtual recluse...coming out only for the biggest of mergers for the briefest of appearances...and still unmarried... and yearning for the girl he loved the most..after letting her leave..cos he thght he couldnt bear to share his bedroom and bathroom with anyone ....

B.... the new age harshad mehta... he runs the stock market...backed and pushed by the viliest merger broker..he pushes certain stocks down...forcing the then ruined company to merge...and makes slightly bigger paycuts than the merger broker himself...never one to show undue interest in women... he was of the opinion ..that the first kiss is the best kiss..and has kept pining for his true love push..a passionate workaholic..reaching the heights of success has been his major passion.. he wanted to be the best.. he got to be the best...but then....was lonely... all alone..cutting himself off from everyone other than the band of closest frds...but then they were really busy too..he was looking forward to this break..and vowed not to go to the gym for a month before that....

M.... the only one..who chose a 9-5 job..(at home)..to keep his relationship going strong... he had alienated himself from the rest of the gang owing to ideological differences..but time as they say is a healer... he got married early....had a few kids..and settled down into the routine of a boring house husband. a sprightly personality...he chose and picked his connections well..making him a well respected man in society...a go-to man for the rest of the 6..the guy who could pull strings to get the rest out of trouble..jail..and from unpleasant situations....he has never maintained a diary to date about the connections abt the contacts..abt his frds... abt the secrets that he knows.. its all in his head....he keeps it all in him..away from the missus and the family..and plots the downfall of his enemies...all from the safe confines of home in hyd

S.... the entrepreneur..the husband-wife duo..decided to quit their budding engineering careers in the us to set up shop in india...though s had umpteen ideas..he decided he had to set up a colorful lungi store. to satisfy his childhood fantasies...along with the mechanical engineering firm that he had... blessed with 4 kids of varying eyesight...he was the shrink of the group..took it all in..and words never left him...everyone was worried that he should he ever turn greedy and open his mouth..the rest of them would go down ..down in varying levels of discomfort.. some scandalized by family..other losing their wealth..others villified by the law.. . but the nice man that he was.....never did.. took it all in him...and never vented a thing out..till he turned bald....that was an eventful event... he has since gone even more into his shell..and if not for his missus..and his umpteen (two to be precise) sisters and the calming influence of AH.. .would have been stark raving mad

K.... the darkest among the horses...no one even gave him a chance to be as successful as the rest.. except by AH... ...he changed careers like a chameleon changes colors... from a part time suicidal kid..with umpteen love failures...he now is a successful football club owner...he owns a huge club in the UK...whose ownership he has since dedicated to A....he also is the new liquor baron of india....he takes time off from his busy jet hopping schedule to meet with the rest of the gang.and keep them updated with everyone else's details.. he owns some of the finest thoroughbred horses in the world..and rubs cheeks with the elite as he parades them across some of the finest circuits in the world.. his sumptous yatch..is a perfect setting for orgies..something that he says is part of his "imbibed" culture...twice married..and subsequently divorced...he now thinks marriage takes too much from him..and lives by the song " i got a girlfrd everywhere".. "and who says money cant buy love".. is the motto that he lives by...

AB....came late to the group...was part of a different gang..that shunted him and shooed him away... owing to his poor academic performances... he begged allegiance to A and B.. always overshadowed by a hugely successful elder brother.. he carved a niche for himeself eventually... in investment banking.. brilliant ideas followed...each other in short spans of time...and he turned into an amazing.. money making machine...armed with a degree in economics that was worth every penny spent..his sublime work. might yet give him reepect in the family :)... given a huge ransom as dowry..this guy didnt have a care in the world after he got married..(now happy with 3 kids too...) and that allowed him to set his mind on dabbling in something socially and intellectually challenging.

and the last link in the chain...(in the group of 6... adding this guy makes it 7 u might think.. but .cos 7 is unlucky..we will call it the band of 6)... AH...the first in the lot to come back home to india... he busied himself in a 9-5 working job for a while..then decided enugh was enough and set up a couple of things..one... a small consultancy firm that offered its services to only the top firms that had complex engineering and mathematical problems.. a very stimulating experience for him .. ..something that would pay for maintainig him and his precious family. yet would keep AH's sharp brain from draining out.. and then..a small center for unearthing talent.. rather nurturing talent..supporting talented kids with guidance..and financial resources..taken from the other scumbags mentioned above..and polishing it... and pushing them to attain perfection in their chosen field.... oops.he also married well..and has two angelic daughters... both footballers :)...and a son...a ballet dancer... :)

well..anyway..they all met...and went to their hostel...saw the kids in the hostel lech at their pretty wives..and prettier daughters... had enough of tagging along the family to their fave haunts..esply when these haunts were very dirty..and the rest of the family didnt want to come... left the wives and family....and went to all their fave places.. made merry ate bread omlette and grape juice...played footer..or tried to atleast... watched tv in the common room.. talked abt "hamaare zamaane mein" with all the kids from the hostel.. drank vodka.....acted prudish to all the asses who had acted smart with them when they were in school..and showed off their pretty wives and their general success in life to them.. and realized one thing...though they all veered off in different directions..and went with the flow....that they never changed..that they hit it off with each other really easily... that they loved each other.and that they had left behind with each other some part of them. ..that they would always treasure ..and cherish...
all u fuckers..no matter where u end up..dont change :)

Notice to Anil

Please ..please..do something and get ur fucking parallel life off my track man :) as it is .. life is tough..and then everytime u get jacked.. i have to get jacked too...not fair..not fair at all...
we are like siamese twins huh.....
starting off from that fateful day that we cogged in that math exam..cos i could not but help prevent u frm making that arbitly silly mistake....i got incredibly entwined with u ra...

RULES FOR YOU

1) do not hit on women....especially on your school mates please...( school= high school)
2) do not fail in your courses....cog...do some crap..but pass them all
3) do not grow ur hair that long..i think "ur hair+ my hair= constant".. so bugger..keep it short..
4) get an internship fast..me thinks only after that ill get my job... :)
5) quit hitting kee too much...all his ill-wills coming to me too..
6) and grow up u prick...stop acting like a baby...and let me grow up too..u are stunting me :)
7) start supporting renault and chelsea....and federer (the careers he has successfully destroyed..the williams sisters... mclaren..manutd.. andy roddick... and me)
8) do not spit on ppl from balconies and do not throw ice cubes at dogs...
9) AND NEVER QUIT... nee amma..i am turning into a quitter like u...
10) and stay off all the !@#$% dudes :)

and bugger..when we meet..lets do the hawan routine..and separate our lives..if it means.. i dont get ur "superior dancing skills" so be it :)

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhh

I am distracted..disenchanted...dreary...dehydrated... dull...dozy..and am dreading the worst.....
this is what is probably called a "D- day"....:D